I am in such a foul mood today. I know that is usually the norm for people on a Monday but man I am pissy. I think it’s a multitude of things sucking all at once that really made this happen but I am going to blame it on this little thing called My Gratitude Journal. (This journal was given to everyone at my office by the boss.)
I especially hate My Gratitude Journal today because it makes me feel like shit. Each day I get a little daily quote of nonsense from some woman I’ve never heard of. Then I’m supposed to write out what it means to me. Every single day I get nonsense like “Plan purposefully, prepare prayerfully, proceed positively, pursue persistently.” Followed by, “What does this mean to you?” I think it means somebody gets off on alliteration. In total you just said a bunch of words and left it to me to make the actual positive statement or thought out of it. I’m not planning for anything so how in the hell can I do it purposefully? I’ve got nothing in life to prepare for so now what? I can’t proceed positively because you just depressed the shit out of me. I have a lot of crap to deal with right now. Give me a break.
Finally after that hell I flip to the next page and they make me fill in a personal goal of the day as well as a work goal of the day. Somehow I can never accomplish even the simplest goal. It takes me two extra days. It’s frustrating because when I look back on why it didn’t work out it’s because something urgent came up or I couldn’t get the sign-off. I feel like I will never catch up. I will never be ahead of the game. Things will never work out as planned.
Now write out ten things you are grateful for.
It’s the only saving point.
At least I know “I am loved”. Even if I can only fill out that one, I’ll make it through today.