Monday, August 13, 2012

What do you want to do?

I want to learn how to surf.

I don't know why I wrote that. I don't know where it came from. It wasn't an actual thought of something I NEED to do until a few minutes ago. It doesn't have anything to do with anything. I suddenly think it's really important that within five years I have the opportunity to surf. I don't want to be a surfer or live in the surf community. I just want to try it. To do it. To experience it. I don't know how to make that happen.

I think perhaps there are several things I feel that way about. I would like to do a lot of things within the next five years. Just the other day I found myself feeling pretty shitty because I don't imagine I'll have the opportunity to visit Paris... ever. I don't have a particular fondness for Paris. It was probably someone else bragging... and by bragging I of course mean speaking three words in French that I didn't understand and therefor caused me to fill with jealous rage. Seriously though, who isn't curious to travel to amazing place outside of the bubble you have built around yourself?

I've been writing this blog for well over five years. Damn.

What has changed? What have I gained? There has to be something, right?

Oh God the overwhelming pressure of having a life!