Friday, August 31, 2007

On my way out

Just wanted to throw out a few quick things before I head to the hometown for the weekend.

Number 1) Good news! France is just as slow as we are! View Proof Here

Number 2) Bad news. Wickipedia is too liberal for the crazies so they made their own. Try getting your information at Convservapedia. Complete with Bible verse on the home page. I was told to try looking up homosexuality.... scary.

Number 3) Had another voice lesson last night and I already feel everything I used to know coming back. It wasn't completely gone, just hiding from me. Thank Jebus!!

Number 4) I would really like some brunch soon, anyone? Sure, Sunday brunch might conflict a bit with the 11am airing of new Rock of Love episodes but I can probably wait until the eve to view it. Maybe not.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I luves my gun!

First piece of news I read today.
We are number one! Great job America! Everybody has a gun but one in five can't even find where they live on a map. Don't get me wrong, I believe in the right to bare arms and that is mostly because I don't trust the government, but what percentage of Americans have some sort of psychological issue? Maybe we should work on the rules a little more before we start jumping up and down with pride that we have enough guns to fill every grade school in the nation.
I feel so safe.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Hooray for education!

Oh Miss South Carolina, what would our country be without your wisdom? When I watched this I laughed a bit. Then I read the word scrambles of her speeches and almost rolled out of my chair. Here is the original:

I personally believe that U.S. Americans are unable to do so because uh some people out there in our nation don't have maps and uh I believe that our education like such as in South Africa and the Iraq everywhere like such as and I believe that they should our education over here in the U.S. should help the U.S. or should help South Africa and should help the Iraq and the Asian countries so we will be able to build up our future for.

This is my personal scramble that I feel is a more fitting speech.

U.S. Americans are unable to believe that our education in our nation, like education everywhere in South Africa, Iraq, and the Asian countries, don't have maps for the future. Personally, I believe some people out in South Africa and Iraq should help the U.S. or should help so we will be able to build up our U.S. because, Uh, I do that.
They, uh, should like our help and believe that over there, as I should here. The such and such and so.....

I went to public school.

Monday, August 27, 2007

Doing Stuff!

One baby step in the right direction this past week. On Thursday I went to my first actual voice lesson in years. It was fantastic! I love the way this guy teaches and when it was done I felt wonderful. This is my therapy. It's amazing the change one little lesson can make.
On another note, last night Ava brought me along to a theater that does weekly cold readings of submitted pieces in a competitive style. It was incredibly exciting and full of intelligent creative people. Drinking at the bar afterwards I had the chance to really converse with a few of the actors and writers. I can't tell you how happy it made me to be surrounded with people like this again. It has been far too long since I was exposed to this world. I could cry thinking about it. I hope I can stay on this path for a little while. Baby steps.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Mixed Emotions

I believe that every action every living being makes in their lifetime affects the entire universe in some way. How could it not? Everything you do that causes energy including each movement, word, thought, causes a reaction of some sort in the universe. When you think about it at length we have all created each other and everything around us throughout evolution. The earth took a part. The galaxy took a part. Everything took a part of something. We are all connected. It's such a beautiful realization and yet, so obvious. At the same time it is terrifying. In the midst of this beautiful thought I remember I'm connected and a part of everyone and thing that disgusts me as well. If every positive thought has a reaction then so must every negative thought. Both must be necessary for some reason. As disappointing as that seems, it gives me hope. It gives us control. How do you get on the path to enlightenment? How can we overcome the fear and ignorance that holds us back from a potential not even imaginable at our current brain capacity? In the end are the things we fight for worth it? Whose battle is it really? Now I'm all over the place, I know. New found hope always fills me with endless questions that in the end just cause mixed emotions.

Thursday, August 2, 2007

About Me:

I love taking personality tests. When they actually get it right they can explain things that you are unable to say on your own. This is what I learned today:

A General Description of How You Interact with Others

You are clearly a compassionate person; you believe that you should do unto others as you would have them do unto you, and you know that friends help their friends. But with you compassion is just one side of the coin; the other being a side that also expects others to hold up their end of the bargain. So you help others but it is with the expectation that others don't take advantage of you or try to put one over on you. In short, you expect others to treat you as you treat them.

And for those people who do ask for help when they should have taken responsibility for themselves? This is the time when your more hard-edged side comes out. You are skeptical of people when they expect others to bail them out of trouble; if they got themselves into the bind, they should work their way out of the trouble. If it's an emergency, or if it's a friend who has been there for you when you have had hard times, you are there in a quick minute. But you are a discerning person and to you there is a big difference between an emergency and a self-inflicted wound. You just look at the facts: how the situation developed, how serious the situation, and how they can or cannot get through things on their own. The history you have with the person and with similar situations will inform you whether this is or is not a time for you to get involved.

You also have some limits when it comes to being with people. Sure some people need to be with others all the time and seem to get recharged by helping out most anyone else. But that's not you. You know that you do best if you spend a fair amount of time on your own. Not that you are a loner, just that time spent by yourself is not wasted at all with you. You've come to understand that if you don't take good care of yourself, eventually you'll be not good to anyone, including yourself or others.

So your compassion is tempered by realism. Your sympathy for people in trouble is balanced by a critical evaluation of how they got themselves to the place they are. And you've learned to take good care of yourself, so you have something to give to your friends or others truly in need.