Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Copy Cat Carly

I'm stealing from Dar because it's fun to share.... sometimes.

My Currents:

Book- Still trying to get through America (The Book): A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction by John Stewart. Love it but always have had a hard time with textbooks.

Music- Read My Mind - The Killers

Shame-inducing guilty pleasure- Filling out crap like this and taking personality tests that tell me my life is rated R and I'm an old Geezer with an Inland accent.

Drink- Small black coffee located right next to Seagram's original Seltzer water.

Food- Just force fed myself a Blueberry muffin.

Wish list- No rain on Saturday.

Needs- To finish packing up my apartment. Why am I such a procrastinator? Sheesh!

Triumph- I slept through the whole night last night! This really means I'm learning to trust myself again.

Film- Just watched Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus with Nicole Kidman and Robert Downey Jr. So odd but sort of beautiful.

Quote- "You've got to have something to eat and a little love in your life before you can hold still for any damn body's sermon on how to behave." - Billie Holiday

Celebrity crush- It's still Dr. House. Oh Hugh I heart you!

Indulgence- Wine & Beer. I just can't give it up. Damn meds.

#1 blessing- All the people looking out for me.

Outfit- Brown fitted pants with tan shirt. Leopard Undershirt to match Leopard shoes.

Bane of my existence- bills

Excitement- MOVING!

Mood- In this second, distracted. It changes every half hour or so.

Color- Black

Friday, May 25, 2007

Thank you Jebus!

Things are starting to work out. I just signed the lease for my new apartment on 88th and Broadway. That's right, civilization once again!
I'm just a few feet from all night liquor serving establishments. I have a night doorman, laundry in building, and... get this... AN ELEVATOR!!!! Oh my, I'm getting the vapors. I have to take a break.
I'm so thrilled that I will finally be fulfilling my life long dream of having my own place. Sure, I've lived away from home since I was 18 but financially New York is real hard to do without a roommate. This is unbelievable to me. It's a good reminder for myself that even though I often feel like I'm not accomplishing my goals, in round about ways maybe I actually am.

It's going to rain on my birthday. The online weather forecast that I am angrily staring at predicts showers with 60% precipitation. Looks like once again June 2 will be spent at the bar. If it doesn't rain on Sunday I'll try to postpone the party a day. I have so much boxed wine for the park and I'm not supposed to drink while on my seizure drugs. If it rains you will all have to come to my new place and drink it for me. (I'll have a little.)

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I love my Doc.

I was all in a panic on Tuesday when my boss told me not to come in because I kept crying for no reason throughout Monday. I thought it must be the meds. I called my neurologist twice but I was very worried I wouldn't get ahold of him and this could be bad since I chose to stop taking previously mentioned medication.
He finally called around 4:30 and said "Carly? Gendelman." In the warmest voice ever. I was caught off guard because I was running back to my apartment which I was locked out of carrying $60 worth of boxed wine for my birthday. "Are you surprised I called?" he asked. I said Yes, No, I mean, I knew he would call but... obviously I was not prepared to talk right then. I tried to get my thoughts together and explain my concerns about my recent behavior changes. We talked for a few minutes and all of a sudden I start crying. Not in the way you might expect though. I'm not sure how many people can relate but it was the sort of crying a child would start up when they are sick at school and suddenly find themselves on the phone with mom. I already knew I loved this doctor but I guess this response proved to me how much I trust him. I know he sincerely wants to do what is best for me and I trust his decisions. This is unusual for me. I have a hard time trusting anyone. I believe I will be okay though. I didn't yesterday, but I really do believe that today.

I said I would talk about Casey in my last post's comments. He is one of my best friends whom I met awhile back through mutual friends. We started dating last September and broke up a few days before Valentines day. I mentioned in my first post that I was starting the blog partially due to a breakup making me realize I wasn't accomplishing what I wanted to in life. That was Casey. Then there was a two month period where I started seeing 6'8" in Brooklyn. In April Casey and I started seeing each other again. What can I say? I just can't help myself.

So, that is the update. Oh, and I think I just got an apt on 88th and Broadway!

Monday, May 21, 2007

Never a boring moment.

Well, the demon took over again Thursday morning. I was waking up to Casey's alarm and the next thing I know I'm paralyzed and listening to him tell me in a panicked voice that he was there and everything would be okay. Next thing I remember I'm sitting in his living room in my underwear and his wifebeater staring at his roommate and two paramedics that are asking me really hard questions like "What year is it?" Then I had my first ride in an ambulance! I remember very little. Anyway, I'm on drugs now and they make me very, very sleepy. Mmmmm druuuuugs.

I didn't get to meet my broker on Thursday so the place I was interested in viewing was already gone. When we went out on Friday I found this fantastic new place that is far too expensive and I MUST have it! I should find out today if I will be moving to 103 and Broadway. If all goes well parties will ensue immediately!

Friday night I saw Spacey Mooning which I thought was amazing. He is amazing. I also think Jason is amazing. He is the one who got the tickets and then sang a song or two at the Piano bar afterwards. Natalie met up with us after the show but I was only able to stay awake for a short time before the meds made me crash. I hate being a party pooper.

I had my hair cut and highlighted Saturday to make me feel like a human girl again. It worked a little. That was the birthday gift from mom. On Sunday Casey took me out to get my birthday gift from him. I am now the proud owner of a barbell in my left nipple! I must admit. I love it. He got a tongue piercing which looks really hot.
It was an interesting couple of days. Now I'm back to work. Woo hoo!

Monday, May 14, 2007

What a weekend!

Saturday was spent picnicking and playing catch in some huge park in Brooklyn. I managed to burn the crap out of just one arm. I'm going to spend the rest of the summer trying to get the other side to catch up. The park outing did not last long so I made the long journey back to the UES before turning around and traveling back to Brooklyn.

Jason, Natalie, and William met me in times square. To our great surprise we were all dressed up. We had a dirt cheap drink in some scary hole in Brooklyn while Natalie ate a bird. Then we set off to watch Dar's show.
*Note on the show. Dar has this amazing ability to make you laugh at the dark things without ever breaking the moment. Brilliant.

Then, of course, we all went drinking. Not until after our rain bath that is. "We all" includes the original four plus Dar, Gwen , and Dar's Sax playing brother. Great people, good fun!

Sunday was a day of brunching and roof tanning. In honor of our mothers of course. I started the day with brunch and mimosas only to close it out with bar food and pitchers. Mom would be proud. I love the weekends.

Friday, May 4, 2007

Fat Baby

I've got nuthin' to say. I'm just going to post a picture of me at 3 months old. Rolls Baby.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

I saw the future me!

Freddy has this sweet new job that occasionally provides him with free tickets to shows. (Not the bouncer job at Therapy, some legit thing.) So last night he invited me to see The Drowsy Chaperone. I have to admit, I liked it. I wasn't in love but I think that has a lot to do with the current cast, lack of audience, and general low energy of a Wednesday night. The only character that was really on was Aldolpho and after the show I was informed that he was the only original cast member left. All that being said... I would love to play the Chaperone! The character is exactly what I want to be when I grow up. I feel like the woman playing last night missed so many moments and it kills me to be able to watch this and know I'll never do it again. The show almost made me tear up reminding me how much I miss theater. I'm working on a plan to change that.

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Not in my thirties yet.

My neighbors can hear me singing. I had no idea it was that loud until one day when I was warming up in the shower one of them rang the bell and said "was that you?". So I won't be singing so much around the apartment.

I already knew the guy. He records, mixes, and produces out of his apartment. Seems he has been rather successful. Here is an article about him.

Anyway, he apparently likes my voice because he asked me to record for one of his tracks. I didn't take him seriously but after about a month of talking about it we actually got together to listen to his music yesterday. Will and his wife are cool people. I enjoyed chatting with them. I'm not really a hip hop fan but it was an interesting experience anyway. They don't really drink but we had a glass of champagne left over from his birthday which was yesterday. He turned 37 which is much older than I would have though. Then he made a stab at my age.... 29! Believe it or not, I take that as a complement. I want people to think I'm older than I am. I feel much older than I am.

Speaking of how old I am... My birthday is only a month away! I really hope it doesn't rain this year. I would love to have a big outing in the park but my evil birth date seems to think it must rain on that day every single year.

But why worry about it now? Time to throw on my roller skates and enjoy the nice days when we have them.

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Where have I been?

Oh dear blog. It's been so long! How I have missed thee. These past few weeks have been busy but that is not the best excuse for having neglected you for so long. San Antonio was alright. I love my family and being so far from them only strengthens that. In general the city was okay. I can't say I'll be rushing back any time soon. I got home around 11pm Sunday night and left for Minneapolis at 1pm on Monday. Packing was easy at least. Although I was a bit of a mess mentally. I like to be as prepared as possible for business meetings and I was sure I was missing something important. Everything went well though. When I meet my clients I always feel reassured that I am doing my job well.

Minneapolis was an interesting city. I like being alone in a big city. When the work day ends I get to roam around finding a place to dine and amuse myself for a few hours. When I'm tired out I have my own hotel room to go back to. On this trip I found a cool little jazz club called Rossi's. I came across it while wandering and it was perfect. It was a dimly lit underground joint with a big bar and little round tables surrounding the stage. The band playing was the Scottie Miller Band. These guys have a southern blues sound that is really addictive. So much so that I went back a second night and made friends with them. The singer/songwriter/pianist Scottie and the bass player John took me out to a bar after the set and we chatted for a few hours. Really cool people. Wonderful experience.

Everyone is busy. Everyone has amazing stuff happening. How on earth do we all keep up with our lives? I have to say to the people I know read this, you all amaze the hell out of me. Shows and jobs and new amazing people just keep tumbling in and everyone is so talented. It's a rich life. I sound drunk and I have not been drinking. That means it's bed time. G'night blog. G'night rich friends.