I was all in a panic on Tuesday when my boss told me not to come in because I kept crying for no reason throughout Monday. I thought it must be the meds. I called my neurologist twice but I was very worried I wouldn't get ahold of him and this could be bad since I chose to stop taking previously mentioned medication.
He finally called around 4:30 and said "Carly? Gendelman." In the warmest voice ever. I was caught off guard because I was running back to my apartment which I was locked out of carrying $60 worth of boxed wine for my birthday. "Are you surprised I called?" he asked. I said Yes, No, I mean, I knew he would call but... obviously I was not prepared to talk right then. I tried to get my thoughts together and explain my concerns about my recent behavior changes. We talked for a few minutes and all of a sudden I start crying. Not in the way you might expect though. I'm not sure how many people can relate but it was the sort of crying a child would start up when they are sick at school and suddenly find themselves on the phone with mom. I already knew I loved this doctor but I guess this response proved to me how much I trust him. I know he sincerely wants to do what is best for me and I trust his decisions. This is unusual for me. I have a hard time trusting anyone. I believe I will be okay though. I didn't yesterday, but I really do believe that today.
I said I would talk about Casey in my last post's comments. He is one of my best friends whom I met awhile back through mutual friends. We started dating last September and broke up a few days before Valentines day. I mentioned in my first post that I was starting the blog partially due to a breakup making me realize I wasn't accomplishing what I wanted to in life. That was Casey. Then there was a two month period where I started seeing 6'8" in Brooklyn. In April Casey and I started seeing each other again. What can I say? I just can't help myself.
So, that is the update. Oh, and I think I just got an apt on 88th and Broadway!