Today is a day. Another day like all the rest. A confusing day. A day of intense emotions splitting me into a million little pieces. Causing great anxiety. Forcing me to face the future. Forcing me to acknowledge the inevitable. Forcing me to realize that all things change. Nothing lasts.
How is it possible to feel crushed and empowered at the same time?
How is it possible to feel the death and birth of love at the same time?
I think I mourn the loss of relationships with people far too much for my own good. It harms me physically. This can’t be normal. Can it? Is it? How did I develop this? It makes me apprehensive of new people. Actually, I’m great at meeting new people but it makes me fearful when feelings start to develop. When they become important to me they are a danger to me.
Well, what can I do but continue living and taking the joy where I can when it’s available?
Such is life.