Monday, January 31, 2011

Depressed Again


I am in such a foul mood today. I know that is usually the norm for people on a Monday but man I am pissy. I think it’s a multitude of things sucking all at once that really made this happen but I am going to blame it on this little thing called My Gratitude Journal. (This journal was given to everyone at my office by the boss.)


I especially hate My Gratitude Journal today because it makes me feel like shit. Each day I get a little daily quote of nonsense from some woman I’ve never heard of. Then I’m supposed to write out what it means to me. Every single day I get nonsense like “Plan purposefully, prepare prayerfully, proceed positively, pursue persistently.” Followed by, “What does this mean to you?” I think it means somebody gets off on alliteration. In total you just said a bunch of words and left it to me to make the actual positive statement or thought out of it. I’m not planning for anything so how in the hell can I do it purposefully? I’ve got nothing in life to prepare for so now what? I can’t proceed positively because you just depressed the shit out of me. I have a lot of crap to deal with right now. Give me a break.


Finally after that hell I flip to the next page and they make me fill in a personal goal of the day as well as a work goal of the day. Somehow I can never accomplish even the simplest goal. It takes me two extra days. It’s frustrating because when I look back on why it didn’t work out it’s because something urgent came up or I couldn’t get the sign-off. I feel like I will never catch up. I will never be ahead of the game. Things will never work out as planned.


Now write out ten things you are grateful for.


It’s the only saving point.


At least I know “I am loved”. Even if I can only fill out that one, I’ll make it through today.

13 comments:

Moooooog35 said...

It's shit like this that causes workplace massacres.

Kev D. said...

What the hell kind of office is that?

My goal of the day is to skip a meeting in order to go and take a nice dump.

Mike said...

“What does this mean to you?”

It means somebody has way to much time on their hands.

Joker_SATX said...

Just keep in mind that there are highs in your life and lows in your life. The key is to stay stable through the process...

I wouldn't sweat it. Do what you can and that's it. Be happy with what you have done. If others are unhappy, then it's their problem.

kcinnova said...

"I think it means somebody gets off on alliteration." LOL And yes, I agree. Seriously, this is for a job? And does the boss read this? seems WAAAAY too touchy-feely for me. But then, I forgot to take my happy pills today and I'm ready to bite off anyone's head.
I just shoveled the front walk from last week's snowfall because no. one. else. bothered. to. do. it. It's going to snow and ice tomorrow, so I don't even know why I cared enough to pick up the shovel.
Okay, I'll shut up now.

Think happy thoughts with me? :)

Jay said...

Oh I hate gratitude journals and shit like that. Never got anything good out of them.

"At least I know “I am loved”."

That you are. Very much so. ;-)

Gary's third pottery blog said...

FUCHING January, FUCHING February, FUCHING WINTER!

Reb said...

I really hope your boss doesn't expect to read these! Sounds like some Pollyanna, HR zealot decided this would make her/him a whack of dough by getting bosses to believe that their employees would benefit (the company) by expressing themselves positively.

Unless it is a job requirement, I would just chuck it. You can be grateful everyday, for the little things that come your way. Like still having a job, breathing, walking, thinking in complete sentences, singing - what ever you are grateful for is none of the bosses business.

Matt-Man said...

I hope you are in a better mood today dear. Chin up and Cheers Knight!!

Grant said...

Personal goal: stop wasting time on this rubbish.

And, we're done. That wasn't so hard after all. BTW, it sounds like your manager gave you the gift of extra work.

Dianne said...

you are so loved

I hate when corps start that fake touchy feely crap because they don't have the brains or balls to deal with their employees like adult humans
I worked for a place that did this and my journal was always filled with cuss words and odd stick figures
anything to mock them

ps - I love you

Micky-T said...

Plan purposefully, prepare prayerfully, proceed positively, pursue persistently....

I'll take my daily work dump before break...
I pray there is no one in the next stall....
I "will" be able to kill 20 minutes with this dump...
I'll wipe and wash for a full 5 minutes and then slowly make my way back to my desk.

Mike said...

You should answer every one with "yes".

When your boss points out how ridiculous and answer that is, you can point out that a ridiculous exercise deserves a ridiculous answer.

Fuck yea!