I’m really trying to focus on integrity. I want to be able
to say that I’m filled to capacity with it. This means I do what I say I will
do when I say I will do it. I don’t
struggle with this in a general sense so I didn’t think it would be so hard.
Wrong.
Day 1) I woke up early so I knew I could get out of the door
10 minutes early so there would be no way I would be late to work. Integrity
means being at your desk ready to start your job the minute the clock hits your
start time. Turns out, Times Square was shut down and I had to take the train
to a different station farther away and walk back. I was five minutes late.
Attempting to work this through in my brain has been difficult. It’s the very
first action of my new attempts with integrity focus and the failure was beyond
my control. What now? Continue moving forward is all I can think of.
Now I’m going to look through my work and really push to
make sure I’ve done everything I said I would and have no guilt for being
behind. DEEP BREATH.
Day 2) I took a cab
because I was leaving a couple minutes late. Got caught in traffic and a 15
minute cab ride took 40 minutes leaving me both late and with $25 less.
Day 3) I left early
again. The train was delayed due to a sick passenger. WHAT THE F*CK
UNIVERSE? What are you teaching me?
Time is so important
in my life and it’s awful.
3 comments:
The universe is trying to say that january will NOT BE MISSED which is not to say that February is much better....
What's that whole serenity prayer thing? Control the things you can, let go of the things you can't, wisdom to know the difference... or some such...
I think it's just telling you to move out of NY and find some backwoods Loser... :ewink:
Life just has so many variables that are out of our control. Maybe the best option is to move into a place across the street from where you work? ha!
Jay
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